I has an odd conversation this morning with Zeke.  I love these little chats.

Now, I just overheard him saying "I made our house yawn."

I has an odd conversation this morning with Zeke.  I love these little chats.

Now, I just overheard him saying "I made our house yawn."

I had a most awesome weekend. Dad, James and I went away opn Dad's boat Beyond II for three days. It was wonderful, some very good sailing, lots of time to talk and catch up. It is the first time we have all been on a boat togeather since 1994!

It was very relaxing.

It has taken precisely 11 hours at work to totally destroy my sense of being relaxed. The knot of stress is back. It's not really appropriate to talk about these things in this forum, save to say that I am stressed out by the politics and junk that surround the work I am doing.

I'll be very glad when this project is over.

I have also been thinking about legacies. What kind of life story am I leaving my kids? What am I teaching them through how I live and how I interact with them? Jon Eldredge argues that masculinity is bestowed on boys, it is not something born into them. What am I doing to bestow masculinity on my boys?

Right now. Sod all.

A father plays a crucial role in validating his daughter's feminity too. Am I doing anything to help Zoe know that she is beautiful and powerful? Not really.

And, to be frank, it worries me. There are a great many things in this society that will shape their ideas about identity if I (we, Natalya and I) don't step in and start actively doing it. Almost all of them will have what I would consider to be a fundamentally negative impact.

Is that the legacy I want to leave my kids? No. So I am looking very seriously at what needs to change in my life, and the lives of my kids, to help get good, healthy, Godly messages across to my kids about who they are to me, to God and to themselves.

In a realted note, the anit-smacking bill passed a crucial hurdle recently. Afterwards I had one of those half awake, rambly, dreamy kind of things where I saw Sue Bradford proudly proclaiming the next law she had passed, while standing in front f a line of hang dog men with toy guns. A new law had been passed outlawing kids playing with guns. All the men were taking in thier kids toy guns and throwing them in a pile.

Oh how I longed for one of them to turn and nerf her.